I'll just keep DREAMING

Monday, January 30, 2006
11:11 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

hmm. i'm still undecided if i should go staff's house tomorrow. dunno why sia. i was the one who suggested it and was so enthusiastic about it, but now that everything has been settled, my interest just seems to wane. haha. anyway, like very few people going leh. jackson's going, so is kenneth. the rest are undecided like me. haha. hmm. if i were forced to admit, i've gotta say my mind's more or less made up. yeah, made up not to go. lol. i dare bet the atmosphere over at his house would be very awkward lor. haha. can imagine sia. it's not as if he treats us very well nor are we on good terms with him. haha. so... yeah. i'll see how.
anyway, the 2nd day of cny is coming to an end soon. in 45 mins. yeah. gotta say i didn't enjoy myself as much as i did last year. realised i've been saying this for dunno how many years le sia. yeah. cny's getting boring. for what reason, i dunno. i seriously can't seem to make out the reason. maybe i'm getting too mature for all this? haha. every year, the ang pow money seems to be decreasing. and guess what? i actually received a 2 bucks ang pow this year! omg, this is sad, this is just too sad. just can't figure out why some people are just so giam. deep down inside, i roughly know who's the culprit, if you can call her that. oops. did i mention "her"? haha. nvm, whatever, i dun care. anyway, all in all, the mood's just not there this year sia. not sure why.
by the way, i just feel that something seems to be missing in my life. i'm not sure what, but my life just feels empty currently. there's no aim in my life now lor. well, maybe have --- to ord. yeah. but other than that, which is like still one year to go, my life's empty. sigh. maybe it's that reason. yeah. should be. perhaps i should start my search... yeah.

6:49 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

yo people, happy chinese new year! haha. it's abit late though.
at my uncle's house now. so super sianz lor. everyone's engaged in their own activities. i'm left on my own now. but no choice, no one's of my age here. jin, yin and juan all went back already. so i'm left with the adults and the children, though the children have gone out to play basketball. well, they did invite me, but playing with kids? no thanks man. plus it's basketball. if it's soccer, maybe i will consider. haha. anyway, the adults are watching king kong on dvd now. how lame. dunno who the hell suggested watching that dvd lor. me and jin tried persuading outta it, but they are stubborn. so never mind. haha. it's been how long since i'm online, and king kong's not out yet la. sigh. it's just a super lame show, which had it been converted into an essay in school, it would have been totally out of point. haha. titanic + ju on + jurassic park = king kong. yeah. that's what the movie's about. it's one of the many movies i condemn. haha.
sigh. i'm just super bored. can someone please save me? or i can predict i will end up watching the stupid king kong show with them outside. haha. sighh...~

Saturday, January 28, 2006
6:56 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

爱笑的眼睛
演唱: 徐诺萱

如果不是那镜子
不像你不藏秘密
我还不肯相信没
有你我的笑更美丽
那天听你在电话里略带抱歉的关心
我嘟的一声切的比你说分手彻底
泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流过泪
像躲不过的暴风雨
淋湿的昨天删去(忘记)
离开你我才找回自己
那爱笑的眼睛再见爱情
我一定让自己让自己决定

泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流了泪
当一个人看旧电影
是我不小心而已
离开你我才找回我自己
那爱笑的眼睛再见到你
我一定让自己让自己坚定
离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流过泪
像躲不过的暴风雨
淋湿的昨天忘记
离开你我才找回自己
那爱笑的眼睛再见爱情
我一定让自己让自己坚定

再见到你
我一定让自己让自己坚定

Sunday, January 22, 2006
5:14 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

安静
演唱: 周杰伦

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴
安静的悄悄的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我
也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪
我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份
包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多
我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份
安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你

5:06 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

oh man. this is great. this is just too great. guess what? my cd drive is gone! argh. fuck man. i dunno what the fuck happen sia. one moment i was still burning some data into some cd-r, and the next, the cd drive got deleted! and i seriously dunno how i did it. must be the pirated nero. fuck man. poon told me it's a virus. kaoz. this is just great huh. yeah. what a wonderful thing to happen just before cny. congrats to me, people. i'm so damn happy. -_-''

Saturday, January 21, 2006
9:10 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

body aching all over sia. did some gym yesterday. didn't know the gym over at cnb sports complex is open to us sia. went there for the 1st time yesterday. it's quite small la, but shall make do with it. gonna train up my lower limb power sia. my legs are seriously weak. sigh.
anyway, heard some programme on the radio introducing weilian's new album. to tell you the truth, i didn't have high expectations for him, but alas, i had to hold both my hands up for him sia. you should try listening to it. it's good, though it's quite a bit of an understatement. his voice just has this unique and strange ability to draw your attention. yeah. i surrender. this guy's good.
since i'm talking about weilian, let's come to junyang too. sigh. disappointing sia. heard his new song. kaoz. total copycat la. it's like jay chou number 2 la! the song, the melody, the rhythm, the singing, the rapping. everything about the song just seems to point towards jay lor. sigh. given junyang's talent, shouldn't he try to have his own style instead of imitating jj lin and jay chou? sigh. disappointing.
i'm still waiting for kelly. yeah.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006
10:08 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

haha. was reading the njc lion dance forum. apparently i'm still a member there even though i've been inactive for dunno how long le. haha. and they have been sending updates to my e mail account too, though i've got this urge to label it as junk mail. oops haha. anyway, was reading the recent update just now. haha. seems like ld is in a mess right now. haha. from what i understood from the text, should be the exco's fault. inability to lead well. sigh. just when i thought vincent was the worst leader i've ever met. oops lol. but anyhow, ld's in a mess right now. haha. aiya cannot make it la. the standard's been dropping ever since our batch has left sia. well, i'm not saying that we were that good, but at least we got a silver in the ntu tertiary competition. and yeah, our immediate juniors got a silver in the same competition the following year, but the standard was so much lower that year la. yeah. i dare say our juniors are many notches below us in terms of technique and skills. yeah. lol.
anyway, going for some amazing race shit at fort canning park tomorrow. why am i always selected for such shit? from rsn cross country meet to deepavali celebrations at little india (where i nearly got lost -_-'') to some family day thingy at wild wild wet and now this amazing race shit. bet i'm gonna collapse from rushing from one place to another tomorrow lor. amazing race. what lame shit.
watched star idol just now. oh man. i'm getting more mesmerised by that alicia sia. seriously my type of girl. haha. si bey chio sia. couldn't get my eyes off her lor. haha.
ok, dunno what else to say. i'm shagged. yeah. stayed in last night coz i was on standby today and there's some shitty detail early in the morning at 0600. sigh. lan lan suck thumb.