I'll just keep DREAMING

Sunday, January 30, 2005
11:34 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Was reading Vincent's blog. Think he's feeling damn fucked up. Well, rightly so. If I were in his shoes, I would too. Really felt for him sia. Well yes, he's having a slacked time in NS but looking at his situation, I rather choose to be under the sun. Hmm. Think I better stop because this may sound sensitive.

11:13 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Was watching Variety Big Brother on Channel U. Woah. That second last performer is damn chio la. And man, was she hot! Haha. That dance. Oh man. My nose almost bled la. Haha. Chio, cute, sexy. Oh god. What more can I ask? Haha. Melissa Tang Ai Xuan. Hmm. Must take note of her in future. Haha.
Hmm. My favourite radio programme on 93.3 now. Ran ni de er duo qu luu you. Loosely translated as let your ears go holiday. Lol. Woah. That's worse than Singlish sia. Haha. Anyway, what I like about this programme is that there is no DJ on board. Haha. That's the way I want the radio programmes to be like sia. DJs are damn irritating la. Keep talking like no one's business. Why can't they just play the music non-stop? But I must admit the DJs add some life into the programmes but they just sound damn irritating to me at times. Haha.

Friday, January 28, 2005
11:45 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Hmm. Was reading Weili's blog. Realised I missed NJC too. Sigh sigh...
Seriously, I rather study than work. Sigh sigh...

11:24 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Phew. Finally I'm online. This computer has been playing tantrums sia. It's making me feel so fucked up at times that I really feel like smashing it sometimes. Hmm, anyway, it's been a week since I last updated. Don't really know what to say actually. Haven't been talking much this past week. I have already quit my job at Tee Yih Jia. Can't blame me. It's so freaking sianz la. Plus the pay is so low. And worse, this job is so gonna worsen my already-so-bad-eyesight if I continue staying on. Anyway, been staying home after I quit the job. No mood to look for another job. Guess I have been in isolation for the past week. When I wake up every morning, the house will already be empty. And by the time everyone comes home, I will already be so tired and so used to not talking that I won't feel like talking to anyone. I don't know what to do everyday sia. When no one's home, I will switch on my hi-fi at full blast and at the same time I will leave my computer and my TV on. But I don't really watch them. I just feel like leaving them on. Don't know why also. I can't even hear what those people are saying on those TV programmes la. I can only hear my radio. Haha.
Oh recently I found myself hooked to all those freak Taiwan drama series. Haha. Quite amused at myself. In the past, I really found these dramas irritating sia. Haha. Sigh. Don't know la. Maybe I'm really bored.
Arh I don't know what else to say la. And I don't have the mood to say anything more.
Listening to 93.3 now. Haha. B.A.D is really funny sia. Lol~!

Friday, January 21, 2005
1:03 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Hmm. Just watched some Ultraman show on Channel 8. It was quite touching sia. Especially at the ending part. Can't beleive I actually felt tears welling up in my eyes when the alien died. Haha. Fancy me getting emotional over such a fictional show. Haha.
Anyway, I went back Tee Yih Jia to work yesterday. Changed department though. In Accounts department now. This is no good sia. Firstly, I'm now under that whiny girl's supervision. Secondly, the Accounts department is so far away from that Angel's department lor. Now I could barely see her from my desk lor. Argh. Thirdly, the accounts figures are all printed so freaking small la. Kaoz. Just staring at the figures for 5 minutes will give you a headache sia. Just imagine having to do that for 8 long hours. Argh. Anyway, realised that profits last year wasn't that much actually. Remember the last time I said I was shocked at their profits? Well, I made a mistake. Thos figures that I calculated the last time was only their credit figures. Yesterday, I calculated their debit figures. And whoa, was I shocked. It was a lot la. So overall, when I calculated their total profits for the year 2004, it was only about $100 000. Not a lot for a big company lor. Oh when I was going through the figures, I was quite surprised to see the names Kok Hongyi, Chua Swee Heng and Ong Yee Chwan lor. Haha. I knew all about their salaries. Lol. But I'm not gonna say here. Seriously, it's quite little for a stacker's job. Lol.
Hmm. Talking about the guys. They came out from hell yesterday. Haha. Gonna meet them in a while's time. A pity not all of them are turning up. Yao Zong said he wanna recuperate at home and Vincent has got some checkup thingy on his kneecap. So left 5 guys. Haha. Quite looking forward to meeting them though. Haha. Yucks. Sound quite gay sia. Lol.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005
11:07 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Oh ya. Forgot to say just now. Haha. Got a ride back from work just now in the big boss' car. Haha. His car is damn classy la. It's really those kinda big bosses' car. Lol. But seriously, you won't know he's the big boss if you don't know him sia. The way he dresses is like he's working for the logistics department la. Haha. Oh btw, the big boss is not my uncle k. Don't be mistaken. Haha. Anyway, on the ride back, he talked to me alot about his life. Haha. Can tell from the way he talk that he's a damn intelligent person sia. I was actually quite impressed by him lor. All the advices he gave me in the car... Woah! He's damn right sia. I respect him for that. No wonder he's the big boss who lives in Bukit Timah. Haha. His way of thinking is damn flexible and smart la. I'm referring to his way of running a business. No wonder his business is such a success. His strategy is superb. Haha. I must say that I was really super impressed. Haha.
And oh! Jeslin from that Tee Yih Jia company called me again this morning. Told me they now need me back. Wth. They really is a cocked up company la. First hire me, then they sack me after 2 days, then now a few days after my sacking, they want me back. Wtf la. Anyway, my job scope will be very much different if I really do go back there. I'm now in the Accounts department. Now, that's not good news k. Coz I will be under that whiny girl again! Argh! But then, it's not confirmed yet coz I told them I can only start work next week coz my current job assignment is till next week. Hmm. They said they will call me back. I don't know. That didn't sound too positive. I shall leave it up to fate. Haha. Maybe they will hire another part-timer then sack him again. Then they will want me back again. Haha. Arh. Whatever.

9:10 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Yay! Earned my 3rd $50 in less than a week today. This is really good money sia. $50 for less than 6 hours of work. That's like $8.33 per hour la. Haha. Anyway, went to MJC for the second consecutive day today. Sigh. These 2 days' stay at MJC made me realise that I actually miss school very much. Seeing how the students are having fun with one another, it kinda reminded me of those happier times in NJC. Yes it's true that the stress level of JC is really the ultimate, but taken away the stress, school is actually okay isn't it? Haha.
Anyhow, MJC got lotsa chio bu sia! Haha. Mostly from J1s though. Haha. How come almost every average girl I saw lately appears chio to me? Haha. Is my taste getting lower? Or is it a sign of desperation? Haha. And you know what? For the first time in my life, I actually felt that a Malay girl is chio! Haha. But she's really quite cute la. Then she got those kinda demure look and can tell that she's those gentle type. Haha. Kinda reminded me of Alicia. Haha.
Oh oh! I saw something that I shouldn't see. Haha. This morning when I was serving a girl, a sudden gush of wind blew her skirt up right before my eyes. It flew all the way up to her chest level la. And she's not wearing any safety pants or something la. Haha. Was quite shocked to make any sound reaction, so I just stood there blinking my eyes. Haha. Anyway, she was damn embarrassed la. Haha. Anyway, was quite surprised she wasn't wearing any pants beneath her skirt. Thought all girls would do that? Hmm... Haha. Kk, I better stop. Haha.

Sunday, January 16, 2005
10:15 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Woohoo~! Can you believe this? Singapore has won the Tiger Cup! Whoa. I must say, I'm very impressed by this current Singapore team. You should have watched them play sia. The Singapore national team finally looks like one which can compete at the international level. The standard of Singapore football has definitely improved. Not only Singapore, but South-East Asia as a whole. This Tiger Cup has shown me that the South-East Asian soccer teams no longer play what looked like amateur soccer. Haha. Well, yes, we are still a far stretch from Europeam soccer, but at least our standard is of a professional one. Haha.
Anyway, Singapore won 2-1 tonight. It was a superb result, considering the fact that many people expected them to lose to lose tonight. Well, I was one of them. I thought Indonesia would take this game, and that Singapore would only, at the very best, draw. That's why I put my money on 1, 2 goals instead of taking Singapore in the 1x2 category. Argh. That damn Alboy ( err, is that his name? ). If not for his goal, I would have won money. Sigh. And seriously, I think Lionel Lewis deserved a clean sheet for his performance tonight. He's absolutely excellent between the posts tonight sia. He certainly deserved his 'ASEAN Petr Cech' label. No wonder he was awarded the MVP award of the tournament. But then, I think his goalkicks suck. Haha. He should learn from his deputy Hassan Sunny sia. Haha.
And oh, Itimi Dickson. My god. This guy. He's super fast lor. It really is lightning pace sia. You should have seen how he earned Singapore its penalty today lor. He sprinted nearly three quarters of the field and no one could catch up with him lor. He left all his opponents picking up his dust sia. Super duper fast. Nigerians are really good runners sia. But then, the another Nigerian-turned-Singaporean Agu Casmir suck. I seriously doubt his ability to lead the Singapore attack line lor. He's like the Emile Heskey of Singapore lor. Big-sized but clumsy. How often did you see him score from open play? Haha. This sucks. Raddy should just learn from Eriksson and drop Agu man. I believe our very own home-bred Indra and Noh Alam Shah can do the job up front. Oh talking of Indra, his goal was nice. Precise and powerful long shot. Just like my kinda shot. Lol.
Well, I think the Singapore soccer team has finally salvaged some pride for themselves after so many years of ridicule. But our captain Aide 'Rio Ferdinand' Iskander spoilt the night by getting himself sent off for a silly unnecessary tackle. But seeing him cry on the sidelines after that, I guess everyone would have forgiven him. Well, at least his sending off did not hamper Singapore's efforts of beating Indonesia. Haha.

Friday, January 14, 2005
5:02 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Woohoo~! Just returned home from work. Yupz. Found new job le. But it's those kinda one-off assignment type of job. Will only be working for 5 days and I will have earned $250! Haha. Good money sia. Anyway, I'm supposed to sell PE attire at some schools. I was posted to Christ Church Secondary today. Some ulu place in Woodlands. But whoa! Damn lotsa chio bu sia! Lol. And I realised what Vincent once told me was true. Haha. Birds of the same feathers flock together. Haha. All the chio bu will be one gang and all the shuai ge will be one gang. As in, those with good looks will usually hang out with those good-looking ones. Get it? Haha.
Anyway, those girls kept asking me if they should wear small or medium. I really will know la. Haha. So I just anyhow tikam. Haha. Wrong don't blame me lor. Haha. Then got one girl asked me what size shorts she should wear. I said I don't know. Lol. Guess what's her reply? Haha. She said, "You come and feel my waist then you will know liao lor." Lol. Oh man. And that's a chio bu! Arhhh...~! Haha. But of course. A-mi-to-fo. I won't do that. Muahahahaha~!
This is so fun. Haha. And next week, I will be going to MJC. Good thing is, everyone will be of my age. Sad thing is, no more xiao mei-meis for me. Lol.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005
11:13 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Kok just messaged me. Hmm. He said training is tough. Train till his hands numb and his legs aching. Sigh, this is bad. Thought my friends from PTP said training is like school PE. And guess what? Even Kok can't pass their pull-ups la. Shit man. If he can't pass, then what about me? Argh. Gotta train harder sia. But the good thing is, he said the running is damn slacked. Guess Yao Zong must be relieved sia. Haha. Oh oh. Vincent is coming back to mainland soon. He kenna transferred to do light duties because of his knee. Think must be some clerical work or something la. Haha. Damn slacked.
Anyway, I don't know what happened in the afternoon. After I returned home from gym, I was suddenly damn giddy la. My head was really spinning sia. I couldn't even walk straight la. Can you imagine that I even have to struggle to my bed when it is only a few steps away from me? Oh man. And the best part is my vision was suddenly blurred la. It's like I'm almost fainting lor. Luckily, I managed to reach my bed before I pass out. But the weird thing is, I was absolutely fine after my sleep. Wth. Don't know what the hell is happening la.
Sigh. I got a phonecall from my company this morning. Ok. I'm officially sacked. Haha. Wth la. I've only worked for 2 days la, and now they tell me they don't need help anymore. Then why the hell did they hire me in the first place? A bunch of idiots. And since they intended to sack me, why did they ask me to keep my punchcard and security card that day? Now I have to send these things back to them tomorrow la. Have to go all the way to Woodlands just to return them the things. Fuck la.

Tuesday, January 11, 2005
10:21 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Sigh... Been sick for the past 2 days. Flu. And the stupid medicine made me so drowsy all day long la. I've been practically sleeping through my past 2 days la. Made me feel so lazy.
Oh ya. Talking about this. For the first time, I went to a polyclinic. All thanks to my Mom, who said polyclinic is cheaper. Argh. The queue is so super duper long la. Can you believe it actually took me more than 2 hours before I can finally step out from the clinic? Argh. The moment I stepped into the clinic, it's wait, wait and wait. From registration to waiting for the doctor to collecting my medicine. Argh. The worst part was waiting for that bastard doctor. There are lotsa doctors there and they really want to assign me to this stupid doctor la. He's freaking slow la. Other doctors can finish examining 6 patients and he can barely finish 3 la. Wtf. I'm already running a fever and he made me wait for 1 1/2 hours la. It's making me more sick lor. Kaoz. And you know what? After making me wait for sooo long, he examined for hardly 4 mins la. Argh! Really feel like slapping him that time sia. I'm never going to go back to him ever again sia.

Sunday, January 09, 2005
1:50 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Oh man. Have this sudden urge to play mahjong. Haha. Been using Yahoo mahjong to satisfy the crave. But the rules there are so different la. Sigh. But at least it gave me a new understanding to the game. Haha. Realised I have been quite stupid in the past. Sigh. Had I known this earlier, I would have won much more money la. Haha. Never mind. What's not mine will never be mine. Haha.
Anyway, I was reading the Sunday New Paper. They were saying last night's match was fixed. The Indonesians wanted a 3-1 scoreline or something like that. But I watched last night's match. I seriously think that match was not fixed lor. It was so obvious that the Lions won that match with their own efforts, not because the Indonesians allowed them to play. It was so obvious that the Singapore defence kept the Indonesian attack at bay la. It seriously can't be match-fixing, unless of course, the Lions were part of the match-fixing. But I don't think so.
Yay. S.H.E is first on 93.3fm Billboard! Haha. They beat that bust-enhanced Jolin! Lol.

10:59 am
i'm the dreamer ...

Hmm... Guess all the guys should be bald now and they must be doing their PT now. Haha, and I'm here slacking away. Lol.
Sigh I guess this opens another new chapter in my life. Life, is really like a story, don't you think so? The writer is Fate and everyone has a story unique to himself. When you are first born into this world, your first chapter of your life opens. As life goes on from stage to stage, different chapters will appear. In each chapter, the people you meet will become the characters in the story. Of course, there will be main characters and other supporting characters. Those main characters must be those closer to you during that stage of your life. As the story proceeds from chapter to chapter, the main characters will change. Very seldom will a main character remains as the main character in the next chapter, unless of course, Fate arrange it that way. On the other hand, the list of supporting characters will get longer and longer as the main characters of the previous chapter will join the supporting cast in this current chapter.
And so, the story goes on... A new chapter has been opened in my life... One has to move on, is it not? It's better not to hold on to things that longer belongs to you. You can never win Fate, and neither can you understand its arrangements...
So Forrest Gump, you are wrong. Life is not like a box of chocolate. It's more like a story that goes on and on and on and on and on... ...

Saturday, January 08, 2005
10:58 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Oh man. The Lions shocked me sia. 3-1 win. Away somemore. Haha. But gotta say they are zai sia. Didn't expect them to be so strong. Make me kinda regret not watching them play their previous matches in the Tiger Cup because I thought they were gone case. But one by one, they overcame the obstacles, and now they are going into the final second leg leading 3-1. Haha.
This match really made me change my view of the Lions sia. I must say, I have lotsa respect for our defence. They held their line really well sia. Superbly organised. And I gotta say, their reading of the game is superb! Especially Aide's. He really led by example, deflecting every attack away from the goal. Bennett was good too. He wasn't tricked easily by the Indonesians. A composed defender. And I dare say, he is the best technical player in the Singapore team. Though he wasn't a left-footed player, he made amends with his techniques. Subramani was again the target of attacks. Haha. Don't know why he's always the one. Maybe he's Indian? Lol. Anyway, while the defence was good, Baihakki Khaizan was quite anonymous in this match. He's lucky that he has Aide to cover him in central defence. Last of all, our keeper Lionel Lewis was superb. He timed his rushing out to perfection and was composed between the posts. Was really unlucky to concede a late late last minute consolation goal. I must say, he deserved a clean sheet.
Anyway, in midfield, I was quite surprised to see Khairul in place of Itimi Dickson. It was obviously a gamble that did not pay off. Yes, Khairul scored a goal, but that's an open goal in front of him. He will be shot if his shot had not gone in. Other than that goal, all he did was lose possession to the opponents. He's too small in built. He was so easily checked away la. No wonder Raddy took him off even before the halftime whistle was blown. Dickson's introduction added the necessary bite to the Singapore attack. He's damn strong and pacy la. His holding of the ball, his runs and his crosses were all superb. Raddy had better start him in the 2nd leg if he wants to hold on to the lead.
Last of all, the strikers. Noh Alam Shah was quite off-form today. Wasn't that sharp as he was against Myanmar. But Agu Casmir was good. He's as strong as Dickson sia. His holding of the ball was excellent! Haha.
Anyhow, hope Singapore can be as composed in the 2nd leg. And we have a high chance of doing a Greece in the Tiger Cup! Haha. Hmm... Should I go watch the 2nd leg at the National Stadium? Maybe I should. I mean, how often will we witness our Singapore soccer team lift a trophy? Haha. But just to add something. If you think by winning the Tiger Cup this year can make our ambitious Goal 2010 come true, you dream on!

5:53 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Hmm... Was reading all the blogs. It's like everyone's gone already. The feeling is like a dream. In this dream, we are all trapped in a dark space. In it, there are all sorts of people, all fighting to get out of that suffocating space. We were all strangers to each other at first. No one knows anyone else. Everyone's fighting for their own survival, fighting to get out of that horrible place. But slowly, we came to understand that in order to get out, we will have to cooperate and work as a team. Soon, we were united as a team fighting alongside each other for our survival. Slowly, we became friends and slowly comes the identity, sense of belonging and team spirit. We started growing as a team, together through the ups and downs. Closer we grew as the challenges get tougher. Through this long journey, we had our differences and misunderstandings about each other, but all these were just small hiccups along the way. Very often, we will trash things out and out goes all the unhappiness as we get to know one another better. We came to understand that, for 2 people to become friends, both have to accept the other party's flaws. In this dream, we all have a common goal --- to climb up the steep route in front of us in search for freedom. Slowly we crawled. We crawled, we crawled, we crawled... Finally, we see the long-lost light in front of us. It's near the end of route. We congratulate each other. We tried to make the final dash forward. But we were all down with fatigue. Our strengths were already at the very limit. No matter how hard we tried, we couldn't speed up. But hand in hand, we supported each other and finally... We are free! We celebrated, jumping up and down. But suddenly, I woke up. The dream has ended. I looked around. No one else is around. I'm all alone...

Friday, January 07, 2005
7:28 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Woohoo~! Cool! Today's my second day at work and guess what happened? I was sacked! Lol. Well, not exactly sacked la. At least they allowed me to retain my punch card and access tap card. Haha. That means I'm still under employment, just that I won't be reporting for work. Haha. Anyway, it's because the company's computer system broke down la, and I'm a data entry clerk. Get the picture? Haha. No wonder all they asked me to do yesterday was help them arrange and pack files. I was quite surprised because I'm supposed to enter the data for them, but I didn't touch the computer one bit. Haha. But since packing files was so slacked, I didn't bother to probe further. Haha. But now I understand. Haha.
Anyway, today was more slacked than yesterday la. I was practically stoning away the whole day lor. Haha. Nothing for me to do sia. I was so bored that I went to chat with the sweeper auntie in the staff lounge! Lol. Thw whole day, I was pushed from one department to another because they could find nothing to keep me occupied. Haha. In the end, I was sent to the Accounts department. I was supposed to calculate their profits for them. Haha. Was quite surprised when they asked me to do it because I'm a temporary staff and they actually trusted to do their accounts for them. Haha. But man, was I shocked. Their profits is like... Whoa! Haha. They have so many smaller companies under them la. Pro sia. And all the clients are those big-time companies lor. NTUC, Cold Storage, Carrefour, Giant. But 60% of their business comes from NTUC la. So I say, this company will never fold sia because NTUC will never close down. Haha. Unless, of course, they offended NTUC or something la. Haha.
Oh ya! Haha. I couldn't stand my boss at the Accounts department la. She's damn whiny sia. Argh. Even when she is giving out instructions to her subordinates, she is still whining lor. Haha. And the worst part is when she is answering calls. Argh! Sitting beside her made me feel as if I'm working for a phone sex company la. Lol. I especially hate it when she said "hmm" in agreement. It's like moaning lor! Haha. And i'm not exaggerating k. Haha. Anyway, I can tell that her subordinates do not really like her. Haha. They tried their best not to show it but to me, it's damn obvious. Haha. Can really tell that they are faking respect for her lor. It's like they dislike her, but they don't dare to offend her because she's their superior. Haha. And oh ya! Her blouse is those kinda very loose type lor. So whenever she bent down... Lol. Kk, I better stop, but I must clarify that I didn't see anything k. Must trust me. Haha.
But the sad thing is, my eye candy did not report to work today. Must be sick or something. But I finally know her name! Haha. She's called Angel. Oh man. What a suitable name for her sia. Haha. In the company, she's really like the angel la. Haha. Looks-wise, I mean. Haha.

Thursday, January 06, 2005
8:23 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

My first day in my new job. Was quite okay la. Wasn't as sianz as i expected. Maybe it's because I did everything too quickly, so they kept piling my assignments up. Haha. But I rather have lotsa things to keep me occupied than having to sit there and stone.
Anyway, there's all sorts of weird people in the office. Haha. Firstly, the receptionist. Haha. She's like a robot trained to answer calls sia. Haha. Everytime she picks up a call, it will be the same greetings with exactly the same tone and timing. Lol. And the funny thing is, she always puts down the phone before she even finish speaking. Haha. For example, if she said "Thank you Mr Wong, we will keep you informed", the phone will already be on its way down while she's saying "we will keep you informed". Haha. Get what I mean? Nvm.
Then there's this cheena lady with super thick make-up and super elaborated dressing. Haha. She kinda confirm my thought that cheena people will never have any dress sense. Haha. Anyway, I don't understand what the company hired her for. She can't even speak proper English la. It's really those kinda cheena English. Just go listen to Enson Hu sing and you will know what I mean. Haha. And you know what? She actually misunderstood "laboratory" for toilet! Lol.
Oh oh! There's this lady who really looks like Mrs Chiew sia! From the back view, that is. The way she walks, her built, her dressing( you know, those kinda old-fashioned o-biang auntie dress? Lol), and even her hairstyle! They are really exactly the same sia. When I first saw her back view, I was shocked sia. Thought she got sacked or something (you know, with our class' results, none of our tutors will have any security. Lol).
Oh ya! Another thing. Got a guy looks like Goh Kien Huay also. Haha. From the back view also. His hairstyle and his hair colour exactly the same lor! And the way he stands... Oh man! It's him all right! But guess where I saw him and what's he's doing? Lol. He's in the manager's room and you should know what happened. Lol. Oh oh, just in case you are confused, he's not Goh Kien Huay k. Haha.
Okay, then comes my supervisor (it's not Jascelyn, I don't know why). It's another section head. She's those kinda super enthu and diligent worker sia. Looking at the way she works, oh man... I wonder why she's not the manager. Haha. But her character reminds me a little of my Mom and a little of my aunt. Haha. That's a good thing by the way beacuse I feel very comfortable working with her. No stress, no pressure, whatsoever. I must be thanking God that I'm not under Jascelyn (my interviewer) sia because I can forsee that I won't enjoy being with her. Haha. Anyway, Jascelyn is those kinda person who will reply you in English even when you speak Mandarin to her. Haha. Does it reminds you of someone in our class? Lol.
Okok. Here comes the highlight and my motivation to go for work. Haha. Yes! There's a chio bu in the office! And my desk is just beside hers! (well, not exactly beside la. We were separated by an aisle and a printer table. It's actually quite far isn't it? Lol) But then again, she's not really that chio la. But she got those kinda qi zhi that will attract men to her. Haha. I shall not be so fussy because I need some motivation and something (I mean, someone. Lol) for me to look forward to. Haha.
Oh ya. just thought of something. While I'm happily looking at my chio bu in the office tomorrow, some people will be sadly carrying their haversacks to the ferry pick-up point. Haha. Okok, I shall not laugh. It will be their turn to laugh at me when I enlist in April. The worst thing is, I may even meet Vincent and Kok inside because I will report in on 7th and they will report out on the 8th. Argh. Nvm. Haha. But anyhow, take care brudders! Don't think too much and the nightmare will be over soon. Oh by the way, don't think we will see anything inside la because we will be so damn tired after each day that we will sleep through the night. Yupz, so don't worry. Don't know what to say also. Just take care la k. Let the 09 flag unit spirit live on! Haha...

Wednesday, January 05, 2005
10:27 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

My slacking days shall come to an end tomorrow. Finally, I found myself a job. Hmm, maybe I shouldn't use 'finally' because I have only started to look for employment a few days ago. Haha. Tomorrow onwards, I'm gonna take over Vincent from his job. Haha. But only $5 per hour. It's a bit lower than my expectations, but it's ok la. I shalln't be so fussy when my wish list is getting longer and longer. Haha.
So, if I'm starting work tomorrow, this morning's badminton session will be the last time I will be seeing the 09 flag unit before they report for NS. So sad. Hmm, will it be a long time before I see them again? Maybe. Maybe not. Shall see.
Anyway, guess it's been a long time since we last played badminton because everyone is so off-form and rusty this morning, even Vincent. Haha. And I was thrashed by Collin. Lol. And my pairing with Yao Zong lost to Collin and Jiawen! Haha. But it was quite fun la. At least my sacrifice of a gym workout was worth it. Haha.
After the badminton session, the guys came to my house, looking for some entertainment. Lol. They must have enjoyed themselves. Lol. After all, this will be the last few times they can enjoy such entertainment. Haha.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005
6:18 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Went to watch 'Meet the Fockers' with Vincent and Kok. Was quite funny. I like the plot. Haha. I seriously hope that my future father-in-law won't be like that sia. Haha. It's damn tiring having to deal with a father-in-law like this. And it's even more tiring to spend efforts 'fockarising' (read: fuck-a-rising) him. Lol.
On my way back, heard some shocking things from someone. Man, that's reason why I'm a racist towards indians. Just despise them. Oh man, just the thought that that fucker escaped scot-free make me gek. This is ridiculous sia. I have always believed in something. Men can be horny, but never go around doing disgusting stuffs that are illegal, if you know what I mean. I mean, c'mon where's your principles and everything? Just take that fucker ah neh and the yellow stripper on Top Fun(though I think he's more of crazy than horny) last night, aren't they disgraceful? We don't need men like this sia. This just sucks.

8:33 am
i'm the dreamer ...

*Yawnz* Just woke up. It's so duper early la. I went straight to bed upon reaching home last night. Don't know why. I wasn't tired on my way home. But once I saw my bed, oh man... Haha.
Anway, had an occupying day yesterday. My whole day was packed. Haha. Morning, went to gym with Vincent and Kok. Then, went over to Jiawen's house. And at night there was a farewell party fo Yen Ching. Woah. The whole day with s09 people. Haha. Rare sia. Anyhow, the farewell thingy was okay la. At least it's not as boring as i made it out to be. Haha. Actually it's more of a get-together for all of us than a farewell. Guess last night would be the last time all of us have a chance to meet up. After this week, so many of us are gonna report for NS, and the girls will be busy with their own stuffs. So sad. Is that the end of s09? Hmm...
Oh ya. Something I must say. Actually, what's a exactly a blog? Can someone define it for me? To me, a blog is an online diary where you put down all your thoughts and a place for you to vent your frustrations, isn't it? Now, so isn't it funny that we are all so cautious of what we are gonna write and worry about whether what we write will offend someone else? Seriously, why should we care about what people think about what we write? This is our blog. It is supposed to be a privat world of our own, and the readers are just visitors to our world of thoughts. It's a place where people can understand how we think and thereby understand us better. It is supposed to make all of us closer to each other, is it not? To me, that's the way a blog should work. But I must say that I'm not on anyone's side. Everyone's at fault. It's simple. Let's not take what's being said in people's blog too seriously.

Sunday, January 02, 2005
6:38 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Phew~! What a scare sia. I just had my computer back for barely a couple of days and it died on me again this morning! Argh. Luckily I had Ming Feng's help sia. Thanks bro! (though I don't think you will ever come to my blog) It's greato know that you have a computer expert living near you. Haha. I've gotta say I'm a complete idiot when I come to computer stuff. Haha.
Anyway, I went to my cousin's birthday bash yesterday. It's rare occasion because very seldom do we get a chance to meet up with our relatives. Haha. I love to meet up with this bunch of relatives of mine because it is a place where I will feel as if I'm in paradise. Haha. To them, I'm their Wilber Pan (even though I think I'm a far stretch from him)! Haha. Shocked eh? Haha, so am I. Lol. And to them, I'm this super guai kia who's good at studies. But they should really have come to NJ to look at my results sia. Haha. But then again, I'm the only one in the family to make it into Special Stream and JC, so... Ya. Haha. Anyway, other than the ' paradise' misconception, I did not entirely enjoy the party yesterday sia. In fact, it was quite sianz. All I did yesterday was stuff myself up in my cousin's room to watch tv after dinner, and the only time I was out was during the cake-cutting session. But can't blame me sia. Just imagine yourself in a family where all your other cousins are all little kids (the eldest one is only Primary6!). Would you mix around with them? Haha. All the little kids would gather themselves together and make noises and talked about some kiddish stuff which I can't even connect with. Lol. Well, there are still some cousins of my age group, but they were the hosts yesterday, so... Ya. Haha. Sigh anyhow it was super duper sianz la. Luckily there's Kung Fu Soccer and Jacky Wu's Tian Cai Go Go Go to keep me laughing, if not I guess it will be hard for me to stay awake sia. Haha. But anyway, Happy Birthday to Cousin Huijin! (though I doubt you will come here.)
Anyway, I just realised yesterday that we have to pay adult fare from now onwards. Sucks sia. It's like so ex la, and I'm the one paying for my own transport fare. Argh. It will certainly take me some time to remember tapping out when I'm alighting sia. Just yesterday alone, I think I have spent almost 3bucks on the 2-trip bus fare because I kept forgetting to tap out! Argh. What a stupid system. Can't they have some sensor on the door or something to scan your card automatically? It's so super troublesome to always have to whip out your wallet to tap your card la. Sigh.
Oh ya, I also realised yesterday that we can no longer download songs from the Internet. Sigh wth... But seriously, how the hell do they check which particular person downloaded which particular song from which particular website? Okay, maybe because I'm a computer idiot, but I just feel that this whole thing is quite lame. First they banned the downloading of songs, then they started to promote all those mp3 players and MDs. Wth right? You mean they expect people to buy a mp3 player and then go buy an original CD and transfer all the songs into the mp3 player? Isn't this dumb?? Okay, I admit that maybe I'm the one who's dumb here, but I just don't get the whole picture.
Oh another thing. I heard from my Mom that we were lucky that the tsunamis did not hit S'pore because we had Sumatra to help us block it off. Woah. Are we lucky or what? I can tell you if the tsunamis hit S'pore, we will all disappear within hours because the waves can drown the whole Singapore! Hmm... But then again, isn't it better if we are all dead? Then we will have no more worries. Everything will be gone. Just like that. In a whosh. Cool isn't it? Haha.Say, if the tsunamis hit us, then i guess we will be having Yen Ching's farewell in heaven liaoz. Haha... Sigh. Whatever.

Saturday, January 01, 2005
3:31 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Woohoo~! Another day of slacking. But what's new? This has been my life ever since A's ended a month or so ago. Haha.
Just finished watching some Chinese concert on Ch 8. Haha. It kinda made me change my views on some singers. Firstly, I have always thought eVonne Hsu can't sing because she has always been lip-syncing. But after watching her performance today, it made me wonder if she has been lip-syncing in the past at all. Haha. Anyway, she reminds me of Yifen. Haha. I think they are both the same type of girl. Don't know how to explain it, but they just belong to the same category. Haha. Whatever.
Then there's this super act cute Cyndi Wang. Argh. Really can't stand her at times sia. But her performance did not change my view of her. She's still the act cute buay cute, act chio buay chio girl who can't sing. Yea. And oh man, she's thinner than that Stefanie Sun la. Haha. So super duper bony lor. Looks abit er xin to me.
Then there's Jay, bringing along with him Nan Quan Mama. I still can't understand what Jay sees in them. They have bad looks, bad singing and worse, they can't rap but they like to rap. Sucks. But then, I'm not saying Jay is better k. Well, ya, Jay is better than them in some sense. At least he can rap, he can compose and he looks quite cool. But the thing is he can't sing! That's the problem with him. Today, he gave some stupid lame excuse that he's down with flu so he doesn't sing well. Oh please, everytime i watch him sing live, his standard is the same. Hmm... Maybe he should just stick to composing.
Then there's S.H.E. My idol~! Haha. Gotta say their shi li improved liao. Still remember when they just came out into the showbiz, their live singing is so sucky that even I can't stand it. Haha. But at least now they will hit the right notes. Haha. Hmm... Am I being a little bit biased here? Haha.
Then there's F.I.R. Oh man. This group. Superb sia. Really is shi li pai plus ou xiang pai. Given their looks, people will expect them to suck at singing, but you will be shocked to hear them sing sia. Haha. Almost flawless, if not totally. But I gotta say their performance today abit the off-form because it's almost flawless. Haha. They should be completely flawless. Lol.
Oh oh, then there's 5566. Argh. Of all singers, the organisers chose them to sing the finale. Wth. I just don't like them. Everytime I see them perform, they will be lip-syncing. Why call themselves singers when all they do is lip-sync? They even lip-sync on their concert! Wth. But can't blame them la. Who ask them to, of all people, choose that transvestite Zax Wang to be their lead singer? Just look at him. Even plastic surgery won't make him any better-looking sia. And he's always acting cool during his performances. Maybe he should just stick to his wacky style, just like when he's hosting. Sigh, anyhow, 5566 just sucks.

1:51 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Oh no, I'm so gonna die. I've just gained another 1kg. Argh. That's 4kg in total since A's. Shit man. I'm supposed to slim down. Sigh. And I haven't been working out too often. Been very inconsistent with my training. But seriously, it's damn sianz to work out la. Sigh. The good thing is, I still have 3 more months. Gonna buck up sia.