I'll just keep DREAMING

Saturday, April 30, 2005
4:42 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

woo. 2nd book out. long weekend. quite song. but that's at the moment coz i don't get to book out next week due to my field camp. have a very strong feeling that i'm gonna hate field camp sia. and what's worse is that it's being led by our oc. don't quite like this guy sia. can't really explain why but he just gives me a feeling that he's not a good guy, military wise that is. anyway, for this past week, i gotta say it's definitely tougher than our 1st 2 weeks. the tekaning are beginning to take place, though i must say our commanders are quite lac on us liao compared to other companies. but nevertheless we still got knocked down for more than 400 in a single day on the 1st day of the week. woo song sia. haha. but for the rest of the week not so much tekan liao, except for maybe the IFC, where my platoon was being fucked upside down by our stand-in csm. felt quite fucked up by that, to be honest coz i thought it was really unfair to give us only 10minutes to set up our tents when it was our 1st time doing it and the equipments that they gave us are so bloody worn out and fucked up. and what's more, when our commanders demonstrated the setting up of the tents, it took them about half an hour to finish setting up and they had 8 people doing 1 tent while we only had 2 per tent. wtf. sigh nvm, as sgt hamsah said, this is the army and we are the recruits, so we have no rights whatsoever to complain or protest against orders, no matter how unreasonable they are. arh whatever. but anyway, other than this incident, the rest of the week was quite ok la. and guess what? i was chosen as the platoon ic on thursday! haha. that was so sudden for me la coz i had no ncc experience or whatsoever, so all my commands were fucked up. haha. even the sgts said i was funny. haha. but what's more unexpected was that i was only starting to get warmed up for this post and then i was replaced. haha. coz i fell ill after barely a day as the platoon ic. haha. dunno how exactly i fell sick also. went outfield for our camouflage training, and the next thing i know, i was feeling some burning sensation inside me. i was really burning lor and i couldn't really breathe easily. then i started to fell dizzy. dunno wtf happened also lor. it happened, just like that. but i must say the sgts handled it quite well la. they stayed damn calm when i reported my illness to them. then sgt ashik started pouring water all over me, unbuttoned my long 4, took off my XBO and helmet then asked me to sit down lie down bend down and do lotsa funny stuffs, though i don't think all these stuffs helped at all. haha. but i was too dizzy to protest or anything la. oh by the way, i tahan all the way till the end of the training before i reported my situation k. haha. is this the 'fighting spirit' they want from us? haha. anyway, the camouflage and concealing training quite dangerous sia. we were cut all over by mimosa and barbed wires la. then during the concealing part, the sgts were like rushing us all over to find a hiding spot that we were practically diving all over the place la. haha. and guess what? i dived down beside a red ants' nest la. it's so damn super big and tall la. the moment i saw it, i was like, 'oh boy', and kenna stunned there. haha. but i did move away in the end, but of course not before being bitten by the freaking red ants la. and because of this, i kenna kb by my platoon sgt coz we were not supposed to move after we dived down to our hiding spot, but i was like jumping up from the ground la, so you can imagine how shocked i was when i saw the nest. haha. by the way, if you think this is bad enough, you haven't seen worse sia. our platoon can be considered quite lucky liao coz the other platoons bumped into a hornet nest la. the hornets were like came flying out and chasing them all over la. the commanders have to resort to throwing smoke grenade to divert ther hornets' attention la, even though some recruits were still stung. so far, this had been the most happening day in my bmt life sia, though i think the upcoming field camp will be even more unforgettable. haha. ok, so after the camouflage thingy i fell ill. got fever. 37.8 degrees. still feeling damn dizzy when i returned to the company line. the platoon sgt scared i kenna heat stroke so kept forcing water down my throat till i was damn bloated. haha. and so, i was excused for the rest of the day, which is quite heng coz that day got night training and it's AGR la. haha. i hate running sia. so when all my company mates were running their lungs out on the parade squade, i was given special permission to sleep in my bunk. haha. damn song. anyway, i was quite touched by my section mates lor coz they really took good care of me when i was sick. quite appreciate their efforts. so i gotta say after this week, i have learnt to appreciate them more. anyway, friday i was abit chao keng la coz i felt damn lazy when i woke up in the morning after a dunno how many hours of sleep. bet no one has ever slept so long in the army lor. haha. so when i woke up i decided to chao keng abit, though my dizziness is still there, but not that serious liao. but i ended up acting as if i wanna faint like that. lol. reminded me of that time in njc where mr goh was also taken in by my superb acting that he even called for a cab to send me home. haha. and so, i ended up slacking the whole day. feels quite shuang to be on status sia. haha. coz when they kenna tekan and kenna knock it down, i only need to stand behind them and watch. haha. but i missed the SOC introduction. as in i attended the lesson but i was not allowed to try the obstacles first hand coz i was on status. though i slacked thru the lesson, i felt it was a disadvantage against me lor coz i think those obstacles have to try and try again before you have the confidence to overcome them. sigh so it was a bad thing that i chao keng la. haha. but never mind la. how often will i get a chance to chao keng man. haha. we are only required to have 75% attendance in bmt lor. this means we can chao keng for about 12 days out of our 50 days or so in bmt. haha. and i have only used up one of those 12 days. haha. but seriously la, it's really a challenge not to fall ill in tekong lor. as the days go on, there are really more and more people falling out and reporting sick lor. but really can't help it la. army really not disgusting la. one second you can be doing push ups on the field and getting your hands covered with soil and sand, and the next second, you will find yourself eating bread with your bare hands, without even time to wash up. really wont fall sick la, plus the tekong water really not dirty la. have you drank plain water which is not plain? if you haven't, you can try coming tekong to taste it. sigh. and the co still said they will take care of our hygiene during his address to our parents. bullshit lor. sigh but what to do? this is the army. don't expect too much.

Sunday, April 24, 2005
5:11 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

sigh. 3 hours more before i book back in. sianzZz...

Saturday, April 23, 2005
11:25 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

woo~! feels good to be home sia. everyone treats you like a king now lor. haha. anything you want, they try to satisfy you. haha. and the best thing is, no more reverie at 0530, no more lights out at 2230, no more dusty bed and pillow, no more area cleaning, no more stand by area, no more sucky meals, no more rush while eating, no more 5 BX, no more push ups and pull ups, no more runs, no more washing of clothes, no more water parades, no more marching, no more drawing and sending arms, no more bathrooms with no doors, no more showing your ass to people queueing up behind you, no more viewing of all sorts of asses when waiting for your turn, and finally, no more 'rush to wait, wait to rush'. kaoz. feels good sia. but good things don't last. in less than 24 hours' time, i will be back inside and it will lights out then. sigh. army life just sucks.

Friday, April 22, 2005
10:07 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

finally! i'm home! haha. fuck sia. i'm like a malay now la. the tekong sun really not hot la. can't understand why singapore and tekong are sharing the same sun but tekong is so much warmer. sigh. should have booked out at noon today one lor but suay suay today afternoon got enlistment into mohawk so all the penguins are fully booked. wtf. sigh. anyway, i'm in raven la. i almost got into scorpion la. wth. when i first booked in, i thought i was enlisted into scorpion la coz all the people around me are scorpion enlistees and we were being briefed by the scorpion csm la. so when i got the raven notification, i was damn fucked up, especially when i realised that our godfather got into scorpion. sigh but never mind la. raven not so bad la. quite welfare also, to be honest. haha. and the best thing is, our sergeants are good and funny! haha. sgt lim, sgt ahmed, sgt harfriz. haha. good to have such sgts around sia. makes our army life better. like our csm also. funny guy sia. it's only during his lecture that i won't fall asleep lor. haha. and from the way he speaks to us, can see he's really attached to us lor. can feel his "love" for us. haha. sigh, but sadly, he left yesterday. didn't tell us why also. according to him, osama is finally caught by the US, and the US army can't squeeze anything outta him, so they are gonna send him over to talk to him coz he's the " well-known steady steady" guy. haha. fuck la. when we 1st heard that osama is caught, all of us recruits thought it's for real la coz we are really cut off from the real world la. though they gave us Today newspaper everyday, we really got time to read la, plus Today really not much info lor. sigh anyway, just feel damn sad that our csm is gone la. hope nothing bad happens to him coz he looks damn sad the day he left us la.
my platoon is ok la, as in my platoon mates, though i seriously dislike some of them, but of coz i didnt sound out or show them my attitude la. but i met quite a few familiar people in my platoon la, which is good. edwin, kenneth, then got some from cjc and njc one. my section mates ok also la, though most of them are so bloody english that i think i won't become really close friends with them. anyway, guess the other sections will hate our section la coz we are always the slowest to react and fall in. haha. but can't be helped la coz 2 of the most cocked up people are both in my section. sigh. can't stand them at times lor, but they will be sleeping with me for so many freaking weeks so i had better keep such things to myself. haha. anyway my platoon sgts are not bad la. quite kind to us, or maybe it's adjustment week, so... haha. better be prepared for the worse. but sgt harfriz is one of our sgt, so not so bad. but our platoon sgt is quite fucked up. can't predict his mood one lor. he's like having pms everyday one lor. and the worst thing is, his mood swings is damn fast and unpredictable la. one second he will be smiling and joking with you, the other second, he will be fucking us up without any visible warning or whatsoever lor. wtf sia. and you know what? he's quite unfit la. dunno how he got into sispec also la. when he wears his pt kit, wah kaoz! really not flabby la. then got once he led our platoon for a dunno how many km run la, i was running on the front row, and i can see him panting like fuck la when so many of us recruits havent tire yet la. then today during our gym session, i was doing some leg training and he fucking hell come disturb me when it's otot la. stood behind me watching me do. ok never mind, but he come kaobeh me that why i did so light weights. ok fine i'm weak. then he go adjust the weights to 300 plus kg and asked me push 8 for him. chee bye. never mind, i tolerate. ignore the pain in my thighs and did 6 for him. fucking hell. i thought to myself, if he asked me do it, he should be able to do it himself, but wtf did he do? when he was doing, he shifted the wieghts to less than 150kg la. bloody hell fucked up sia. then i saw him doing some weights for his chest. i was doing about 100kg and i can do more than 20 at a time la, but fucking hell, he as the platoon sgt, was doing only about 70kg and he cannot even tahan for 20 times la. see his face like wanna die liao lor. fuck man. if i'm unfit, then what is he sia? though my pull up only 1 now, i dare say i'm stronger than him la. fuck man.
sigh all in all, ns is not as bad as i first thought it out to be la. but as i said, maybe it's coz it's still the adjustment week. so i had better prepare myself. as for now, the training is not very xiong la. at least it's not my limit yet, though i gotta admit my fitness has dropped like siao. i failed my first ippt. pull up reduced to 1, shuttle run deproved by 1 sec, 2.4 slower by more than a min, SBJ barely made it. fuck sia. result of one year of no exercising. haha. oh by the way, i think got one thing i think cannot make it. route march. wah kaoz. it's damn tough la. carrying dunno how many kilos of load on your back and walking for dunno how long with a freaking rifle slinged onto your neck. wtf. my back almost broke la. 4 km is still not so bad, but 6km is really my limit sia. i was really suffering la. almost wanted to fall out lor. luckily edwin was besides me pushing me on. if not i will really die sia. jialat lor. it's only 6km now lor. how am i gonna complete my 24km route march??!!! arhhh...!
sigh whatever. i'm damn shagged now. gonna sleep liao. i miss my bed and my air con sia.

Thursday, April 07, 2005
12:54 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

tekong~! here i come~! recruit lim reporting in 3 hours' time...

Wednesday, April 06, 2005
9:19 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

18 more hours. Recruit Lim! Ready up!

Sunday, April 03, 2005
10:58 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

waahhh...~! just watched walk left walk right on channel u. argh. really not lame la. kaoz. waste of my precious time sia.
sigh 3 more days... get ready sia...