I'll just keep DREAMING

Saturday, June 25, 2005
10:24 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself: Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education: Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

9:48 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

this is bad. think my hell life has started. the first part of last week was really the orientation lor. then things started to look bad when we were posted to changi naval base on thursday. the supervisor there was the last person we would want as our immediate superior. staff kho!!! arhhh...! save me man. a si bey act sey and guai lan instructor lor. life's gonna be hard with him as our superior man. and the worst thing is, i was selected as the ic! arhhh~! this means i'm gonna answer to him whatever happens to my team. and this is something bad, i can sense it. with such a superior, life for his ic will never be good lor. doing understudy to the current ic for the past 2 days i was there. sianz lor. so damn lotsa things to do lor. and guess what? this current ic just recovered from a broken arm, so he's kenna drop pes and will downgrade soon. then he will get posted out of our unit and then... i'm the new ic! oh no. and from the way he puts it, this handover seems to be quite soon sia. haha. from then on i will be the 2nd biggest in our unit. haha. just below staff kho. and the current ic told me when i take over, most of the corporals will not have ord yet, so they must take instructions from me! lol... sounds so zai right? but i really will dare to command the corporals la, even though my appointment is bigger than theirs. haha. but that CPL Alan will be marked by me man. haha. ever since we came in, he's been ordering us around like he's some big fuck la. so too bad, he's on my blackmark list. lol. sigh whatever the case, just hope my course starts soon, even though life will be really hell if we fail the course. life for us before we go for course is really like sai kang warriors la. totally no purpose and no meaning at all. and this sucks. and it sucks even more when i'm the ic. sighh...

Tuesday, June 21, 2005
9:52 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

hmm. so today's my 2nd day at my new unit in tuas naval base. and guess what? i have nothing to talk about. haha. yeah. coz my unit is so freaking slacked that i can hardly find anything interesting to comment about. being in this unit in the past couple of days makes me wonder if i'm even serving ns. haha. so you can imagine how slacked we are. basically, i got a culture shock, and i'm still trying to recover from it. from the army to the navy. yeah, both under saf but both totally different. army is so freaking regimental that few people can stand it, but navy is so super flexible. haha. the discipline wise is the most drastic in the difference. just look at the navy drills. oh man. i dare say the recruits in tekong can do better than the sergeants in navy. haha. oh yah. speaking of the sergeants, the specialists in my navy camp are all so freaking fat and flabby that at a glance people may mistake them for sumo wrestlers. haha. then when i went to sign the book out booklet in the office today, i saw the instructors' ippt results on the wall. oh man. even 1SG can fail ippt la. and their failing rate is super high lor. wonder how they chose the specialists in navy one lor. haha. so as you can see, fitness is not everything in navy, unlike the army.
anyway, life is seriously good at tuas la. it's so good that i'm sure even those at work will be envious of us. haha. this is our normal routine for the past 2 days. 0815 fall in. 0820 fall out. 0830 supposedly start work. note that i added the 'supposedly'. lol. coz we seriously have nothing to do since we haven't gone through our course yet. so we have been spending our time waiting to be interviewed by our superiors, and while waiting, we are free to do whatever we want. lol. so those smokers have been smoking their lungs away, so much that the grass patch in front of the smoking point is literally covered with cigarette butts. then the non smokers will just go walk around the camp and more often than not we will end up in the canteen where we will see so many 'crabs' at one go that we won't know how to react. haha. but we have never greeted any of them. haha. and they don't give a damn about us too. haha. and i can swear this would never have happened were we in army. haha. ok then 1000 is our tea break where we are supposed to go to the canteen. but we were already there for the whole morning, so we will often end up sleeping at our resting point, though it's kinda rugged, but nothing will ever beat outfield la, so we are fine with it. haha. then we will sleep till 1200 which is our lunchtime. then after lunch, we will be so bored that we don't know what else to do except sleep. haha. yeah. as of today, we slept from 1300 to 1700. lol. and when we woke up, it's time to book out. haha. yeah. so do you even consider this a military life?? haha. but maybe it's still orientation period for us la. tomorrow won't be so slacked i guess since we were instructed to bring along our pt kit and vest slag. should be having some physical stuffs tomorrow. shall see how physical is their physical activities. haha.
As DSM said to me after our interview, "Welcome on board, and i mean literally. I'm sure you will enjoy the rest of your 2 years here." Yeah I'm sure sir. I will enjoy rotting myself away over there. -_-'' haha...

Sunday, June 19, 2005
10:52 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

counting down. 9 more hours. gotta wake up damn early tomorrow morning. tuas is like how far from yishun la. sigh this kinda suck. just imagine if there's really no stay in for me in this vocation, which i think is quite impossible though alot people are saying there isn't, then won't the transport fare be like freaking lot? argh. tuas naval base. hope it's really a nice place coz it's where i'm gonna be for the rest of my ns life, which is like 20 months. so it had better be nice. dunno what is gonna happen tomorrow sia. hope there's no physical stuff or anything near that coz 2 weeks of slacking makes me feel really physically lazy, if you know what i mean. haha. but doubt there will be la, coz tomorrow should be all admin and lectures. yeah. hope so. but the instructions told me to bring pt kit. hmm... so i dunno sia. let's pray hard. haha.
navy here i come~! ! !

Saturday, June 18, 2005
10:57 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

just returned from our class, or rather group outing. haha. not bad la. was ok as compared to the previous few gatherings. haha. at least we all enjoyed it i guess? was supposed to catch the 1545 show at lido but because of all the latecomings, went cine instead. haha. but lotsa hesitation there as we didn't want to leave some people out. but in the end, not all stayed with us la. watched batman. quite good sia. a pity jun yuan and vincent missed it. bet they would have loved it, especially vincent, who was happily doing his guard duty while we were enjoying ourselves. haha. anyway, will look forward to the next episode of batman, which i'm quite sure there will be.
feel quite sleepy now sia. dunno why also as i should have rested enough during my block leave. guess resting too much makes you tired too sia. haha. sigh but i don't feel like sleeping coz i know when i wake up it's one day left before i report to my new unit. been wondering how navy life will be like and what's my vocation about. hope it's something i like and something that's slacked. haha. yeah. one day or so left, and guess what? i'm still unsure of how to get to tuas naval base sia. haha. don't wish to take cab there sia coz i bet it will be damn expensive. from yishun to tuas leh. it's like from the north to the west lor. sighh. but i bet in the end i will still resort to taking cab, unless of coz i managed to figure out how to get there. in the meanwhile, shall try to enjoy the rest of my block leave in peace. guess i will be spending the whole day in front of my computer tomorrow trying to conquer CM5. haha. finally bought it after much hesitation. but kaoz. hard sia. much more challenging than CM4, though the graphics look much more amateurish. haha. sigh so another typical day of slacking tomorrow i guess? 2 weeks of eating and slacking has made me gain 2kg during my block leave sia. haha. how impossible man. but all in all i still slimmed down quite alot during ns la, considering i lost 11kg during my bmt period. and can anyone believe i actually achieved 59kg the week after my field camp? haha. that's like lighter than yao zong la. lol. but i'm back at 63kg again. but still much lighter than my 71kg previously. haha.

Friday, June 17, 2005
10:57 am
i'm the dreamer ...

haha. oh man. vincent just told me a very good news. haha. his friend from january batch got the same vocation as me. said such service vocations need educated people like us, so we go there may become commander or something like that. then we may get combat pay instead of service, and that we will ord with a sergeant rank instead of a corporal rank. lol. cool eh? haha. don't need go sispec also can become sergeant. haha. hope he's not talking cock to me again. haha. if it's true, then song bo liao. haha...

10:40 am
i'm the dreamer ...

hahahaha~! i kenna posted to navy! haha... tuas naval base. haha. sea terminal operator! haha. wtf man. reali not slacked la. sounds like those sit in air con room looking out to the sea and press some buttons kinda job. haha. oh man. so my sergeant is right. those who didn't take the actual ippt and soc tests will kenna slacked vocations. haha. budden... think mine is service pay. sighh... price to pay for a slacked vocation...

Thursday, June 16, 2005
10:28 am
i'm the dreamer ...

Mr Miyagi of myveryownglob.blogspot.com

You are witty, and you know people from places. Those two qualities and others make you a very popular person among your peers, because they want to hear you dish out filthy backstage gossips. You also have a knack for inventing new words to suit yourself. You are a very loyal friend, and would jump into the ocean if your friend asked you to. And that's probably gonna happen if your friend gets too jealous of you getting all the girls/guys.

Which Singaporean Blogger Are You?

The True You
You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.
With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies.
You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.
The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society.
You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's" the True You?

You Are A Romantic Realist

You are more romantic than 50% of the population.

You tend to be grounded when it comes to romance.Sure, you can fall hard... but only for someone you've gotten to know.And once you're in love, you can be a total romantic goofball...But you'd never admit it to your friends!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

You Are A Fun Friend

You're the one who keeps your group laughing
And you've always got an idea for something fun to do
The party's not complete without you
And you wouldn't miss it for the world

What Kind of Friend Are You?

You Are A Lime Tree

You are intelligent, hard working, and innately successful.
You try to change what you can in life - and you accept what you can't change.
Tough on the outside, you are actually soft and relenting.
Jealous at times, you are extremely loyal and giving to those you love.
You have many talents, but you don't have enough time to use them.

What is Your Celtic Horoscope?

Your Birthdate: March 14

With a birthday on the 14th of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them.
You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas, and you are also very good at organization and systematizing.
You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel.

You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable.
Your mind is quick, clever and analytical.
A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine, and rebel against it.
You have a tendency to shirk responsibility.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

haha. ignore me. think i'm too bored. sighh...

but seriously, all these quizzes are quite accurate sia. haha.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005
10:04 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

sigh i'm so bored. nothing to do sia. not a single programme on tv seems to interest me. i'm getting sick of my cds. no games in my computer. sigh. my life is so boring. half of block leave is gone. so fast. don't want to report back to ns so early. sigh. sianz...
house is rowdy now. quarrel going on in the living room. parents trying to knock some sense into bro, again. -_-'' getting so tired of such shit. just can't understand why a person of his age just can't wake up. why can't he just wake up his fucking ideas?! sigh... forget it. not that i wanna despise him or anything like that, but his actions and thinking and everything about him just forced me into it. arh whatever. never mind.

9:48 am
i'm the dreamer ...

woo. new template. again it looks quite feminine. haha. and again, i like it. haha. sigh. still hafta travel all the way to school to collect the a level cert. such a waste of my time la. kaoz.

Sunday, June 12, 2005
8:59 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

seems like this blog is dying soon, so since i'm bored now and nothing on the tv seems to interest me, i shall be nice and give this poor blog of mine some life. ok so, though this is abit late, i have already passed out from the BMT. enjoying my block leave now, and i have already forgotten how i felt about POP. haha. sad to say, but it's true. haha. waiting for my posting now, which will come out on friday. hope the system doesn't cock up coz i really don't wish to enter a command school. purposely failed my pull ups during ippt coz that stupid oc of mine forced me to express interest in a command position, so only way to escape is to fail ippt, and even though my PTI seemed suspicious of me that day, i don't care man. anyway, my last 2 weeks in BMT was quite slacked. haha. didn't do many of the activities that we were supposed to do. was on attend b status on SOC day, but this can't blame me coz there was fever outbreak in tekong that week, and i was quite unlucky not to get an attend c status. haha. half of raven company was sent home for that few days la, so you can imagine... haha. then i fell out of the 24km graduation route march coz i sprained my freaking ankle along the way. and the interesting thing is, i didn't really know how i actually sprained it. only remembered we were going uphill towards oil palm plantation and i was stepping on a pebble, and the next moment i knew, my ankle gave way, and platoon sergeant hakim refused to allow me to continue despite my constant insistence that i can continue. so i was sent back company line to rest. and upon reaching, was ordered by my csm to go sleep. haha. wtf man. and what a day. haha. when people were suffering out there, i was enjoying myself on the dreamland. haha. but not that i wanted it. they forced me. haha. and so, coz of my sprained ankle, i missed my re-soc and re-ippt on monday. haha. really wanted to take the soc, but no choice sia. not that i wanted it this way. haha. then seeing how swollen my ankle was, my pc wanted to force me to fall out from the POP. no way am i gonna miss it man. trained so hard for 2 months just for this day and you are telling me not to join it? no way man. so i stubbornly showed my pc that i can squeeze my freaking swollen ankle into the boot. though it was so freaking painful... haha. but i managed to convince him that i can take part la. haha. but for the whole parade, i was doing silent drill. haha. never bang at all. haha. damn slacked. but my ankle was really hurting like crazy when we had to stand still there for some time la. haha. but was so happy that day that i ignored the pain. and so, i POP liao. haha. was supposed to go back during my block leave to complete my re-ippt and re-24km, but managed to get myself excused coz of my sprained ankle, though i was abit chao keng for the latter event. haha. but please la, really want me to go all the way back and spend 3 more days in that freaking hellish place just to make myself suffer for 24km? siao. no way man. and so, i get to enjoy my full block leave in the civilian world. well, at least, that's what i hope. haha.
anyway, watched 2 movies so far after my leave started. mr and mrs smith was super nice. probably the best movie i've watched in a long time. and no no, it's not coz of the super hot anglina jolie, though she's really hot. haha. then watched madagascar today. hmm, what can i say? maybe this movie's abit too overrated coz i don't really find it that nice. i like to move it move it, she like to move it move it, you like to? MOVE IT! haha. arh whatever. anyway, went rv alumni band concert with jun yuan after madagascar. and luckily we decided to go say hi to jiawen sia, if not i really will want to kill vincent sia. forever a blur cock man this guy. told us the concert's at esplanade when it's actually at victoria concert hall. argh. just imagine if we hadn't meet jiawen and she hadn't told us the right venue... argh. forget it. anyway, the concert not bad la, though i'm not that musically inclined to make any professional comments. enjoyed it la coz i was sitting beside this 2 cute secondary school girls. haha. but i was too tired to bother about them much la coz i was trying to control my eyelids for the whole concert. almost succeeded in keeping them open for the whole concert lor. but i dozed off near the end of the concert until i was awaken by some screaming girls behind me. dunno what the hell they were screaming about man. i only remembered myself getting quite annoyed by them coz they woke me up. haha. eh eh, but don't think i wasn't paying attention during the concert k. i did. at least i can make out that the rv alumni band was quite superior compared to PJC's and that sec sch band.