I'll just keep DREAMING

Thursday, July 21, 2005
10:45 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

was watching the superstar show on channel u. revival round. haha. all looked so sad and ke lian lor. just look at hagen and lijun, who even cried on stage. -_-'' haha. k la. feel sad for her too la, since it's her last performance liao. lol. please lor. tonight's competition really no fight lor. with kelly around, the other 3 competitors will be competing in vain lor, though i won't mind if chanel gets through. haha. kinda think she's cute. oops haha. kelly's chio too la, but too bad i like cute girls more than chio. haha. but then again, kelly should go through la. don't even know how she managed to get herself into the revival round lor. she should go straight into the semis last week. this proves singaporeans are really deaf sia, if not jerry won't go so far in singapore idols previously. oops wrong topic. haha. but you get my point. anyway, for the guys, i think derrick will go through la. trust those crazy xiao mei-meis. haha. they have already proven themselves with sly at singapore idols. haha. but i like leon better. he's more steady than derrick, but his fan base is questionable. haha. hmm. results in 30 minutes. haha.

9:50 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

hmm. nearing the end of my leave le. in fact, it ends tomorrow. haha. in case some of you didn't know, i'm on leave since monday. kenna forced by our that bastardly unreasonable superior (yao zong you don't complain. i have a worse time dealing with superiors than you. haha) to clear our annual leave so that we can available to his torturous handling 24 hours 7 days a week after our courses. that, of course, depends on whether we can pass our courses or not. haha. but then again, we have to pass them or we would be sent to the unit right across our unit, and that's Reigmental Police (RP). oh man. i wouldn't want to be there sia. witnessing their training there everyday had totally changed my impression of RPs. thought it would be a slacked vocation. other than they have a better superior than we do, all else seem so demanding. haha. my 1st course starts on monday. class 3 and 4 driving course. haha. yeah. you heard it right. i will be learning driving for free. haha. if all goes well, i will get my class 3 and 4 licenses by end of august, and will be adding another class 5 license by the end of the year. haha. but then, all will be military licenses. sighh. our freaking lame bastard superior doesn't allow us to convert these licenses to civilian ones. this sounds so unreasonable la, since the drivers in the drivers vocation are allowed to do that, and that son of a bitch just refuses to give a reason for his actions. oh, or should i say he never once gives an explanation for every stupid thing he does? "army has their discipline. a naval man trained on ship has their own way of discipline." yeah right. he definitely has his own way of discipline. maybe unique is a better word to describe it, coz we have never witnessed any other naval man using such discipline. -_-'' ok, so much about that bastard whom i thrashed in ippt (will talk about this later). ok so i have to go for driving lessons outside when i ord so that i can book a test date. this sounds so lame. after driving for 2 years, i still have to go through all this shit just to get my license. bet the instructor will wonder why i can drive so well. -_-'' sighh anyhow, will be staying in at sembawang camp for 1 month or so, though i will be able to come out on weekends la. feels abit like tekong life, but our seniors said this course will be fun, so guess it should be ok? certainly hope so. heard we gotta drive 3000 minutes in a month without accidents to earn our eligibility for the tests. haha. that's like 50 hours! haha. heard we will be driving till 9pm everyday. haha. after we come out from the course, we will be like so familiar with driving le la. haha. bet after 2 years, i will be a better driver than jun yuan lor, even though i learnt driving much later than him. haha. he doesn't even drive around much after getting his license la. haha. and i bet i can finally thrash the self-proclaimed sembawang race king le. haha. just you wait, vincent. haha. bet you are enjoying life in tekong huh? haha.
anyway, it's like how long since i last updated. haha. been too lazy and tired after i booked out everyday la. the long travelling really gets to me man. how i miss tuas. sighh. anyway, been under lotsa stress too la. being the ic is really not easy man. got lotsa things to look and care after. big responsibility sia. whatever matter will come to me lor. so you can imagine... sighh and things are made worse when my immediate superior is a bloody bastard. reporting to him is like reporting to hades lor. confirm will get fucked somehow one, no matter how well i have performed in my tasks. and guess what? according to the seniors, i'm his favourite there and that he trusts me the most. but the way he speaks to me is already like fuck, so you can imagine the way, the attitude and the tone he used on the rest of my team. yeah. welcome to my life. -_-'' the worst thing is having to appease both sides. none of my team mates are satisfied with that bastard, and that bastard forever have something nasty to say to them, so... sighh. i'm like stuck in the middle. it's not as if i like that son of a bitch, so having to suck up to him in order to appease him is just so arrgghhh!!!
ok enough about that. i took my ippt le. haha. surprisingly my fitness didn't drop as much as i expected it to. haha. well, at least i still managed to pass, though it's only barely due to my standing broad jump (forever my stumbling block =X). but guess what? haha. i came in 2nd for my 2.4km run! haha. can you actually believe it? haha. i can't. haha. i actually beat, or should i say thrash, all the instructors including officers and specs! haha. can't believe my timing of 10:37 can also come in 2nd. haha. such timing will at best be in the middle ranking back in tekong lor. haha. so you can imagine how weak and unfit navy are. haha. anyway, my other stations ok la, except SBJ which i just made the passing mark. haha. pull ups stayed at 6, shuttle run improved from tekong's 10.4 to 10.0, though still far from my 9.7 back in jc. sit ups i stopped at 40, though there's still 20 seconds left, but do so many for what? haha. 50 5 points, 40 also 5 points, so what's the point? haha. yeah. so that's my life so far la, with ippt the only highlight. haha. so you can imagine how dull and boring my life has become. sighh. can't help it. it's NS. -_-''