I'll just keep DREAMING

Monday, January 30, 2006
11:11 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

hmm. i'm still undecided if i should go staff's house tomorrow. dunno why sia. i was the one who suggested it and was so enthusiastic about it, but now that everything has been settled, my interest just seems to wane. haha. anyway, like very few people going leh. jackson's going, so is kenneth. the rest are undecided like me. haha. hmm. if i were forced to admit, i've gotta say my mind's more or less made up. yeah, made up not to go. lol. i dare bet the atmosphere over at his house would be very awkward lor. haha. can imagine sia. it's not as if he treats us very well nor are we on good terms with him. haha. so... yeah. i'll see how.
anyway, the 2nd day of cny is coming to an end soon. in 45 mins. yeah. gotta say i didn't enjoy myself as much as i did last year. realised i've been saying this for dunno how many years le sia. yeah. cny's getting boring. for what reason, i dunno. i seriously can't seem to make out the reason. maybe i'm getting too mature for all this? haha. every year, the ang pow money seems to be decreasing. and guess what? i actually received a 2 bucks ang pow this year! omg, this is sad, this is just too sad. just can't figure out why some people are just so giam. deep down inside, i roughly know who's the culprit, if you can call her that. oops. did i mention "her"? haha. nvm, whatever, i dun care. anyway, all in all, the mood's just not there this year sia. not sure why.
by the way, i just feel that something seems to be missing in my life. i'm not sure what, but my life just feels empty currently. there's no aim in my life now lor. well, maybe have --- to ord. yeah. but other than that, which is like still one year to go, my life's empty. sigh. maybe it's that reason. yeah. should be. perhaps i should start my search... yeah.

6:49 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

yo people, happy chinese new year! haha. it's abit late though.
at my uncle's house now. so super sianz lor. everyone's engaged in their own activities. i'm left on my own now. but no choice, no one's of my age here. jin, yin and juan all went back already. so i'm left with the adults and the children, though the children have gone out to play basketball. well, they did invite me, but playing with kids? no thanks man. plus it's basketball. if it's soccer, maybe i will consider. haha. anyway, the adults are watching king kong on dvd now. how lame. dunno who the hell suggested watching that dvd lor. me and jin tried persuading outta it, but they are stubborn. so never mind. haha. it's been how long since i'm online, and king kong's not out yet la. sigh. it's just a super lame show, which had it been converted into an essay in school, it would have been totally out of point. haha. titanic + ju on + jurassic park = king kong. yeah. that's what the movie's about. it's one of the many movies i condemn. haha.
sigh. i'm just super bored. can someone please save me? or i can predict i will end up watching the stupid king kong show with them outside. haha. sighh...~

Saturday, January 28, 2006
6:56 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

爱笑的眼睛
演唱: 徐诺萱

如果不是那镜子
不像你不藏秘密
我还不肯相信没
有你我的笑更美丽
那天听你在电话里略带抱歉的关心
我嘟的一声切的比你说分手彻底
泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流过泪
像躲不过的暴风雨
淋湿的昨天删去(忘记)
离开你我才找回自己
那爱笑的眼睛再见爱情
我一定让自己让自己决定

泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流了泪
当一个人看旧电影
是我不小心而已
离开你我才找回我自己
那爱笑的眼睛再见到你
我一定让自己让自己坚定
离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流过泪
像躲不过的暴风雨
淋湿的昨天忘记
离开你我才找回自己
那爱笑的眼睛再见爱情
我一定让自己让自己坚定

再见到你
我一定让自己让自己坚定

Sunday, January 22, 2006
5:14 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

安静
演唱: 周杰伦

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴
安静的悄悄的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我
也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪
我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份
包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多
我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份
安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你

5:06 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

oh man. this is great. this is just too great. guess what? my cd drive is gone! argh. fuck man. i dunno what the fuck happen sia. one moment i was still burning some data into some cd-r, and the next, the cd drive got deleted! and i seriously dunno how i did it. must be the pirated nero. fuck man. poon told me it's a virus. kaoz. this is just great huh. yeah. what a wonderful thing to happen just before cny. congrats to me, people. i'm so damn happy. -_-''

Saturday, January 21, 2006
9:10 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

body aching all over sia. did some gym yesterday. didn't know the gym over at cnb sports complex is open to us sia. went there for the 1st time yesterday. it's quite small la, but shall make do with it. gonna train up my lower limb power sia. my legs are seriously weak. sigh.
anyway, heard some programme on the radio introducing weilian's new album. to tell you the truth, i didn't have high expectations for him, but alas, i had to hold both my hands up for him sia. you should try listening to it. it's good, though it's quite a bit of an understatement. his voice just has this unique and strange ability to draw your attention. yeah. i surrender. this guy's good.
since i'm talking about weilian, let's come to junyang too. sigh. disappointing sia. heard his new song. kaoz. total copycat la. it's like jay chou number 2 la! the song, the melody, the rhythm, the singing, the rapping. everything about the song just seems to point towards jay lor. sigh. given junyang's talent, shouldn't he try to have his own style instead of imitating jj lin and jay chou? sigh. disappointing.
i'm still waiting for kelly. yeah.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006
10:08 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

haha. was reading the njc lion dance forum. apparently i'm still a member there even though i've been inactive for dunno how long le. haha. and they have been sending updates to my e mail account too, though i've got this urge to label it as junk mail. oops haha. anyway, was reading the recent update just now. haha. seems like ld is in a mess right now. haha. from what i understood from the text, should be the exco's fault. inability to lead well. sigh. just when i thought vincent was the worst leader i've ever met. oops lol. but anyhow, ld's in a mess right now. haha. aiya cannot make it la. the standard's been dropping ever since our batch has left sia. well, i'm not saying that we were that good, but at least we got a silver in the ntu tertiary competition. and yeah, our immediate juniors got a silver in the same competition the following year, but the standard was so much lower that year la. yeah. i dare say our juniors are many notches below us in terms of technique and skills. yeah. lol.
anyway, going for some amazing race shit at fort canning park tomorrow. why am i always selected for such shit? from rsn cross country meet to deepavali celebrations at little india (where i nearly got lost -_-'') to some family day thingy at wild wild wet and now this amazing race shit. bet i'm gonna collapse from rushing from one place to another tomorrow lor. amazing race. what lame shit.
watched star idol just now. oh man. i'm getting more mesmerised by that alicia sia. seriously my type of girl. haha. si bey chio sia. couldn't get my eyes off her lor. haha.
ok, dunno what else to say. i'm shagged. yeah. stayed in last night coz i was on standby today and there's some shitty detail early in the morning at 0600. sigh. lan lan suck thumb.

Sunday, January 15, 2006
8:54 am
i'm the dreamer ...

yawns. just woke up.
sun, 15th jan. hmm. got a busy day ahead.
dad's birthday. yeah.
happie birthday dad!

Saturday, January 14, 2006
5:50 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

一千年以后
歌手：林俊杰

心跳乱了节奏
梦也不自由
爱是个绝对承诺不说
撑到一千年以后
放任无奈淹没尘埃
我在废墟之中守着你走来
我的泪光承载不了
所有一切你(需)要的爱
因为在一千年以后
世界早已没有我
无法深情挽着你的手
浅吻着你额头
别等到一千年以后
所有人都遗忘了我
那时红色黄昏的沙漠
能有谁
解开缠绕千年的寂寞

5:01 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

my god! this guy's a genius! just heard a song on radio. it's a song sung by an unknown and it has created much hype on the internet. the song in itself consisted of 23 songs, and the amazing thing is how this guy expertly managed to combine the lyrics and melodies of the 23 songs together and yet making the end product sound so smooth. and if you listen to the lyrics carefully, they actually make some sense too! oh my god! i can't help but salute this guy sia! simply genius!
anyway, just returned home from yet another new year shopping trip, this time for my shoes. yeah. settled my shopping in rather a short time. maybe it's coz i've long already decided which pair to buy. bought a nike dunk. as far as i know, it's a new design but guess what? i actually got it for only $69! lol. all thanks to my bro's connections in queensway shopping centre. haha. feeling quite satisfied with myself now. haha. anyway, i guess i should be able to complete my new year shopping by tomorrow coz i've kinda already decided on the clothes i want. just going out there to buy them back that's all. haha.
oh by the way, i went to try the mcdonald's chicken funtastic meal just now. hmmm. not as nice as the advertisement made it out to be. well, yes, i must admit the chicken's nice, but the rice spoils everything. they just don't taste right together, the rice and the chicken. had the chicken been part of any other mcdonald's normal burger, i dare bet it would have tasted great. sigh, what a waste, what a pity...

Tuesday, January 10, 2006
5:03 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

just came back from shopping. went suntec. haha. and guess what? i was made the main character in an event which i shouldn't even be involved in! lol. you see, i was coming down from the bridge leading to suntec from citylink and i was greeted with some shocker. lol. the moment i came down from the escalator, i was stunned when a big whole group of people with banners and whistles came dashing towards me. and guess what the banner said? "marry me, my dear princess!" lol. the funny thing is, i had my mp3 blasting away in my ears and i was looking down at my shoes when i was still on the escalator leading down to suntec. so i was quite oblivious of the large group of people in front of me. so when i stepped down from the escalator, can you imagine my shock when i see a whole bunch of lunatics-alike running towards me? by then, all the people who were on the escalator with me had already moved aside coz they had already seen what's coming when they were on the escalator. only the stupid me was still walking into the "trap". i was so stunned that i couldn't react lor. so i just stupidly stood there, still trying to figure out when have i become such a public figure. lol. it was only when i saw the banner that everything came falling into place in my mind. someone's gonna propose to his girl. yeah and the stupid me was still standing there wondering who that lucky girl was when i suddenly realised i was totally isolated with that girl in question. i was standing directly beside her! oh man. at this moment a guy with a bunch of roses appeared from the crowd and came running toward us. (please note that at this moment, i was still rooted to that same spot.) then he stopped short in his tracks and stared at me with some kinda expression on his face that seemed to indicate crestfallen. it was as if he thought i was some third party in that sense coz i was standing really close to that girl. lol. then i woke up from my shock suddenly to find everyone staring at me la! oh my god! lol. and the girl by now was giving me a puzzled and disapproval look. lol. oh my god! can you imagine how paiseh i was?! argh. even the thought of it now will still unconciously make me blush sia! argghh...! that was so so so to the power of infinity embarrassing la! kaoz. at that moment, the only thing i could manage was a soft "sorry" and off i was, pushing my way through the crowd and into the shopping mall. haha. oh man oh man. at that very moment i really wished i could have dug a hole in the ground and jump right in and bury myself alive! argh. fuck it. really fuck it. of all places, why must i go suntec??!!! arhhh...~!!!

11:11 am
i'm the dreamer ...

oh ya. did i forget to mention i've just bought twins' new album? hmm. gotta admit that it's not that nice. don't like it very much. maybe it's in canto, that's why. or maybe it takes time for me to like it, just like jay's albums always do. but anyway, my point's not in the music. haha. it's in the photos in the album. hmm. dunno if i should say this, but i kinda suspect gillian forgot something during the photoshoot coz something protruding just somehow caught my eyes. and yeah this appears in every single photo in the album. the fact that i don't have the same problem with charlene just proves something. hmm. maybe charlene's just too "airport" to make any "impression". lol. oh man. this is getting sick, but yeah. gillian... hmmm... haha.

10:31 am
i'm the dreamer ...

oh man. i'm bored~! argh. i've been rotting since last night. last night was indeed terrible. sitting in front of the computer and rotting. i've been basically surfing from blog to blog to blog. sigh. how interesting. it's been years and i still can't figure out why some people like to surf the internet so much. for me, there's seriously nothing much on it. nothing seems to interest me. and yeah, i'm one who can survive without the internet, but just let me have access to my blog will ya? haha.
i've been reading yesterday's newspapers since i've woken up (yeah, that's been my practice for dunno how many dozen years, so no news is ever a news to me ya? haha, coz i'm always so outdated). still trying to come to terms with the 0-0 scoreline between burton and man u. how the rain had saved me man! haha. if not for the rain, i would have gone to place big bets on man u that day sia. sigh. why can't man u just be more consistent and save us supporters from constant heartbreak? yeah i know. fergie fielded an almost all-reserve team against buton. but still, it's no excuse to draw a stalemate with them coz they are a non-league team in the conference and a staggering 104 places below man u in standing! kaoz. man u's reserves would easily have been the best in the coca cola championship, but that's provided chelsea's reserves are not in the same league. but anyway, you get my point. there's just no excuse for the 0-0 draw.
another news has been the ren ci charity show. been reading all the comments by all the different artistes. haha. and guess what? all their comments just seem to be targetting towards jacelyn tay. lol. yeah yeah, as much as ming yi fa shi tried to deny it, it's quite obvious who he's referring to in his comments. and i think he's right. doing charity comes right from your heart. no one can force you to do anything for charity if your heart's not in it. being a renowned and well-respected artiste, jacelyn just shouldn't have had such an outburst as she did on the national press. that's just so unprofessional. but then again, i kinda agree with her that dangerous stunts should never have been part of the formula for local charity shows. simple stuffs like singing and dancing could have drawn in donations too. just look at what david tao had done that night. just two songs and look at the number of calls he has succeeded in attracting. this should have been the case. mediacorp has argued that such simple performances will not draw in enough donation calls. well, to their credit, that's definitely the case for the past few years. but just look at who they've been inviting to the shows every year. the foreign artistes they've been inviting were either singers who belonged to the museum more than they belong to the stage, or performers who were just not popular enough. just imagine if they were to invite people like david tao alike every year, i'm sure singing performances will be more than enough. yeah. to hell with wu qi xian and emil chau! hail david tao and S.H.E! haha.

Monday, January 09, 2006
10:14 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

watched campus superstar on channel u just now. 1st time watching it. gave in to my mom and watched the designer show on channel 8 last week. anyway, was kinda disappointed with the show sia. from what i've heard from people who's watched the show last week, the standard of the performance was quite high. and from all the hype leading up to this show, i kinda expected more from it. but alas, it was disappointing. it really was. not only did the singing suck, the performers didn't look too good too. where have all the chio bus that i saw on the street gone?! and also, this show kinda gave me an impression that it's of a lightweight stature. just look at the judges and hosts the producers have assembled. dasmond koh and that peter judge were ok. at least they are some credible people in their respective arena. but the rest just didn't fit into the show. ok, junyang and sugi were from the superstar show, but they aren't any proven hosts! just look at how sugi fumbled with his lines and how junyang sounded as if he's reciting from a script. and there are the judges cavin soh and huishi. alright, cavin was once a singer with dreamz fm, but guess what? dreamz fm never ever made it big in the business! mention dreamz fm to the taiwanese and they may even struggle to recall who in the heck was that. yeah, so there you are. cavin should never have been drafted into the picture of this campus superstar. next is huishi. this is even worse. what has a radio station boss gotta do with a singing competition? yeah yeah, dj has gotta do with music. but then, djs are never professional enough to comment and judge in a singing competition. well, maybe yes for shows like psc nite, but for shows like superstar? i've got only one thing to say to the producers. "Are you sure?"

Sunday, January 08, 2006
5:49 pm
i'm the dreamer ...

hey i'm back! haha. after dunno how long. dunno who still visits this blog. but who cares? all the more better if no one comes here. haha. anyway, i didn't quit blogging. just changed to another address which i didn't announce. but now i've decided not to hide anymore. haha.
my life's so dull now. ns has seriously done much damage to my social life la, and i'm quite sure i'm not the only one who's saying this. there's 24 hours in a day, and ns alone has taken up 13 hours! oh my god. everyday i will wake up at 0530 just because i have to travel from the north to the west. by the time i reach home from my camp, it would have been 1830. and that doesn't include days where i have to do overtime due to standby. sigh. sometimes i would even reach home at midnight and the very next day, i stil have to report punctually for fall in. so you can imagine how shagged i will be every single weekday, especially from all the travelling to and fro my camp. sigh. i'm getting sick of this life. practically every day, my parents would come back home at 10 plus to find me snoring away on my sofa set with the tv still blasting away. sigh. how exciting is my life.